I have prayed constantly that God would allow me to spread his word and become one in Him. I truly believe I accomplished one part of realizing what he wants from me when I decided to become a nurse my senior year of high school. I really believe its my calling, and I can't imaging doing anything else as cliche as that may sound. Ive spent the past couple of years since high school feeling relatively lost emotionally, and in some ways spiritually. I was rebaptized last year and became a member of my church (the same church I have been going to since I was, as best as I can remember, 5 years old). I know God is working in my life and I have seen so many of my continuous prayers be answered. With all that is going on in this world right now I have really begun to consider ways that I can help. The only way I know that I can is by ministering to others and bringing the word of Christ into a world that needs it now more than ever. I don't believe that all this violence and tragedy that is rising up in this world to be the end of it, but rather the beginning of the church. My wonderful pastor used that line in his sermon a few weeks back and it has stuck with me ever since. I know God is calling us Christians to help make the world a better place and I would like to begin by bettering myself.
I don't know much about what life has in store for me. All I know is that for now it consists of text books, highlighters, care plans, and medication cards as well a relatively boring set of daily events. I have been asking God to allow me to break out of my comfort zone. Recently, I believe that prayer has been answered. I have decided that when I graduate I will take my medical and spiritual knowledge abroad. Where? I don't know yet but I have considered Africa, Mexico, India or wherever they may need help at the time. Im not talking about a full fledged move, just a month or two to help in any way I can. I realize there are people here in our own country who need our help and I will be here for their assistance as well. I just feel as though I am being called to do this and honestly, I can't wait.

I figured it had been long enough...

Thanks to seeing a friends post about starting a blog on facebook (Thanks Stacie) I decided I should post again, since I haven't in forever. No one really reads mine but I have a lot of thoughts in my head constantly and figured I might as well type them out. I can't post alot on facebook just because of all the family I have on there and they would just worry and even though ive been told it seems like it to some, I dont just "complain" for attention. When you rarely talk to anyone its hard to have to keep everything bottled up inside.
My boring life continues to move a long. I do things related to school pretty much all the time and when im not doing that im being as lazy as possible and/or thinking about the future. I pray every night that God helps me to leave what I can't control in his hands and I know he is doing that, but I know there are some things that I could change and im either too afraid, or I can't figure out how. I can't help but overcome the thought of being alone my whole life, but at the same time, I can't stand allowing myself to be happy relationship wise when so many others arent, is that weird? Btw, Trevor Bayne, I'll still totally be your valentine next year (or every day until then). It seems like when everyone else is out with friends, I am sitting at home. I enjoy alone time but sometimes its nice to have people you enjoy being around who you know care about you. I just really miss my best friend and I need a change in so many ways. I guess God is trying to show me I need knew people in my life, I just wish it would be a lot easier to find them. Im so thankful for my family. I dont know whered id be without them. I want to make that as clear as possible. I am beyond blessed, yet I still long for so much more.
Thats deep...