Thanks to seeing a friends post about starting a blog on facebook (Thanks Stacie) I decided I should post again, since I haven't in forever. No one really reads mine but I have a lot of thoughts in my head constantly and figured I might as well type them out. I can't post alot on facebook just because of all the family I have on there and they would just worry and even though ive been told it seems like it to some, I dont just "complain" for attention. When you rarely talk to anyone its hard to have to keep everything bottled up inside.
My boring life continues to move a long. I do things related to school pretty much all the time and when im not doing that im being as lazy as possible and/or thinking about the future. I pray every night that God helps me to leave what I can't control in his hands and I know he is doing that, but I know there are some things that I could change and im either too afraid, or I can't figure out how. I can't help but overcome the thought of being alone my whole life, but at the same time, I can't stand allowing myself to be happy relationship wise when so many others arent, is that weird? Btw, Trevor Bayne, I'll still totally be your valentine next year (or every day until then). It seems like when everyone else is out with friends, I am sitting at home. I enjoy alone time but sometimes its nice to have people you enjoy being around who you know care about you. I just really miss my best friend and I need a change in so many ways. I guess God is trying to show me I need knew people in my life, I just wish it would be a lot easier to find them. Im so thankful for my family. I dont know whered id be without them. I want to make that as clear as possible. I am beyond blessed, yet I still long for so much more.
Thats deep...
Can I, an ordinary girl, really be called to do extraordinary things?
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