This one's for the girls

This is one of those "venting" blogs. Maybe even one that you dont care about and ill warn you now, if your a guy you probably DONT care. I had this thought earlier, one of my "blogging brainstorms". As much I feel God led  me to start this blog for others and not for me, I keep telling myself "this isnt your diary Whitney, no one wants to see you air our your dirty laundry." Then I remember how I preach about how your greatest struggles can turn into your greatest joys. I still cant fathom it but alot of people have been moved by my blogs. Not that I dont think they're good, im just in awe because these are all God's words not mine, and im not out to take glory for any of it. Hes not asked me to be a hero, just to share His word, His heroics. I didnt mean to do it, but suddenly ive come to realize my past few blogs have been centered on love. I guess its a "love" series. Im probably not the best person to come to for relationship advice. But I am set in what I want out of one, and that may or may not be the reason ive had very little success. Im convinced that theres 3 kinds of guys out there, and ive had every one. #1 The guy that takes FOREVER to make it "official" no seriously, like forever. Girls, am I right when I say that when we said we wanted to take it slow, we didnt mean we wanted to wait until we had grey hair and no viable eggs? #2 The guy that just does everything way to fast and we then find out it was never "us" he wanted....get it? #3 The guy that seems perfect at first. He goes at about the right pace and you get along pretty good. But sooner or later he just starts to treat you as one of the guys. I think friendship is HUGE in a relationship but there are some things you just dont wanna do with a "friend". I am not asking for a pity party here, I dont want to get a thousand comments about how "Oh im soo young and my prince will come someday"....yeah shut up. I already know that may or may not be true. I appreciate everyone's encouragement but heres another question for the girls. No matter how many times you hear that from someone whose already madly in love with a ring on their finger (easy for them to say) it doesnt make you feel any more certain that it will happen. Correct? SO. With that being said I had another talk with God today. I dont claim to hear voices even though i am crazy and I dont try to argue that one. But I do feel like I get answers when I pray and sometimes instantly. Its so amazing the way God does things. Today my answer was in the same form as it always is. Not exactly what I wanted to hear but it gave me peace. I know Hes calling me to be patient. The problem is im not patient and I feel like thats one thing ive been called to be for the past few years (He REALLY wants to be patient). But then I remember a verse I came to love so dearly just a few weeks ago, "Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God's will. Then you will receive all that He has promised." Hebrews 10:36 See we dont always (hardly ever actually) understand what God is doing, but we also didnt know ourselves before we were formed in the womb. I dont know my future. But He does. Everything that is unknown to me is know to Him. This also comes from Hebrews 10:34 "You suffered along with those who were thrown into jail, and when all you owned was taken from you, you accepted it with joy. You knew there were better things waiting for you that will lasts forever." HI WHITNEY! Hi everyone! God has promised us happiness, both now and forever. As believers, we truly will live happily ever after. So as I was crying out to God asking why He seems to get me in so much trouble with relationships that in turn give me way too many tension headaches, I heard it again. That call to be patient. It wasnt a verbal response really, more like a feeling that helped me know exactly what He was saying. He told me "But child, if everything was so easy for you in the love department (yes God speaks my language and yours too) then you would never have what you have always hoped and asked me for. Which is that everlasting love similar to the one I have promised you. When I show you the right person, you will appreciate that love truly and with my help you will make it last because I have shown you both sides of the story. If you continue to be patient I will show you what to do. I will not let you walk alone on this." And then he reminded me of another verse  in Ecclesiastes 3 about there being a time for everything. "For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven, A time to be born and a time to die, A time to plant and a time to harvest, A time to kill and a time to heal, A time to tear down and time to build up, A time to cry and a time to laugh, A time to grieve and a time to dance, A time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, A time to embrace and a time to turn away, A time to search and a time to quit searching, A time to keep and a time to throw away, A time to tear and a time to mend, A time to be quiet and a time to speak, A time to love and a time to hate, A time for war and a time for peace." 3:1-8. I feel like it might as well keep going and say "Whitney there is a time for you to find love and a time for you just to wait and watch my plan for you unfold. There is a time for to graduate nursing school and a time for you to see what is in store for you at this new campus. A time for you to go to Africa and time for you to stay and help your brothers and sisters here." God has written each of us something like this. And maybe I am meant to stay single and just go to third world countries to witness to the lost, or maybe wait and get married after that. I dont know, but He does and I know I will be thankful for walking His path just like I am so far. Then I thought about Ruth and how her heart was broken and then she followed Gods path and was rewarded with a new love and a new son. The funny thing is, I read her story and the verse in Ecclesiastes earlier in the week but just now am I seeing why God led me to them. I trust that He has something for me in the future that will help me to look back at this blog somewhere down the line and say "Oh I get it". And it doesnt have to be about finding the right guy that I can have til death do us part. Pain comes from many things and many types of loss. But one thing about it is always certain. There is a tomorrow. A time for happiness. And take it from someone who knows...Time heals all wounds.